what do you think of my situation..?

well,..i spent some time with my ex-boyfriend on saturday..*sighs* well he just up & left me last year without warning& moved in with his wife& kid in las vegas(they were separated for the 5 years we were together)..well, it was very hard for me..well I didn't know how to act around him i was very nervous and didn't know how to act like myself..he stepped outside twisce while i was with him this weekend to call his wife and that just made me feel really bad.You must know that i was with him for 5 years, he was still technically married but they lived in separate states and he never wore his wedding ring. Now with all that has happend i still had this glimmer of hope, until this Saturday. I still love him soo much and now i feel horrible in side..kind of like empty and what the hell is wrong with me..what am i to him..why did he want to see me? Obviously the wife is #1 and im...what...what am I to him? i want to ask him but i'm afraid that it's going to cause un-easiness for both of us..HE TOLD ME IF I COULD WAIT HE KNOWS WE HAVE A FUTURE..if he loved his wife would he have seen me,would he have said what he said to me.. i can't help but wonder, he says he doesn't, but i don't know if he's just saying that cuz he doesn't want to hurt me? i don't know..i really don't know..i feel,,i don't know how i feel but whatever it is i feel weird...he also told me to let him know when i need help with anything..like i need some dental work done and he wants to pay for it..also he wanted me to go to this family get together with him (the wife wasn't going to go) becasue his family really likes me, and they have told me that they like me for him better than her..comments like that make me wonder, and i have hope that he still wants to be with me that he's just with her for the kid but ..i don't know what do you think?do you think he still cares for me?...i don't know how i feel..
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Don't you feel that you deserve a man that gives you 100%? He knows that you will hang in there and wait around for him. He is using you and you deserve much better-go find it.
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