i've been trained as an Nurse in high school because of a special program. Now i'm not trying to brag, but because i'm so good at it, nursing has become boring. I don't know what i want to do with my life now. and I don't want to make the wrong decision. The nursing program only took 12 people. i did it because i needed that program to get into med school. Now my parents keep pushing me to go to school here and there are 3 schools other schools i'm considering. I don't want to make the wrong choice in school or career and i'm just pretty damn scared. I don't want to be a failure at being an adult or at life. Reasons I don't want to go to school where i live: -I'm tired of the heat. It's always hot and humid and it doesn't snow...just rains heavily. -The younger generation here are shallow, mean, and just plain stupid. Yes in today's life you have to be beautiful, but here, its over the top. If you don't look the part then that's it. even if you change you appearance and lose weight everyone stills knows you as the outcast or whatever your title is. -everyone knows you. this is a big place but its still small. everyone knows you from a small party and school. Everyone here is related, whether it would be by marriage, blood, or a really far blood relation. someone is always your cousin, uncle, aunt, niece, or nephew. Even for respect to your parent's friends, they're your relatives related or not. So yes, everyone knows you. there's always a common relative because of the history here. -i want to be independent with being depended at the same time. my parents are paying for my school, but i don't want to live with them. -there's only 1 college, and 1 community college. there's no variations like the states. reasons i don't want to go somewhere else: -i'm scared as hell. i don't know anyone there. the online websites only give you so much information. -i don't know what i want anymore. i thought i wanted nursing to become a surgeon, then dental, then architecture, then real-estate, then video game designer, then game producer, then english teacher in Japan, then Japanese here or the states (i speak 5 languages), and now i just don't know. -im scared of a wrong decision. i dont want to be unhappy. everyone sys that oh just get a degree and save up money with your job that way you can go back to schol. but i hate school even though im good at it. and i'll be damned if i go back. whats worse is that i'm a person who always make things more complicated than they need to be, i care too much about pleasing everyone's wishes, i have so much pressure to be fantastic like my brother and sister. I'm just tired. I'm tired of my academics, athletics, extra-curricular activities, and just everything. So sorry for making this longer than it should be. So what should I do? I'm so tired that i can't even think let alone make a right deicion.
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First of all, college is all about NEW experiences - new environment, new people, new friends, so it's better to go to a school far away from school. Dont stress too much about what you wanna do in life, you know you could get into college with an undeclared major, right? I mean most colleges let you go on for two years as undeclared until they make you choose on your third year, but cmon thats two years and since its college im pretty sure you'd know what to do with your life by then. Plus, you gotta stop pleasing EVERYONE coz you are who you are and if someone doesnt like that, then they aint good at all :]
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